I keep hitting the snooze button… but it’s not the one you are thinking of. I’m not talking about my phone alarm that goes off at 4:30 AM during the week, because when that alarm goes off I get up. I am an up and at’em type of girl, except on vacation. But this alarm that I keep hitting the snooze button on will no longer turn off. This alarm is asking me to get up and the answer call. To fully live in my truth and purpose. Have you had this happen to you?
So, why was I hitting the snooze button instead of just getting up? Because it’s SCARY. Because it will cause disturbances in my life. Because there’s a possibility that I could be just losing my mind. (Which I know is not true, but feels like it sometimes.) I can no longer ignore it. Now, it’s time to get up!
The thing about this alarm is it’s ringing all the time now. At first it seemed suttle, and now holy smokes it’s powerful. It’s no longer possible to ignore it or meditate on it again. Although, creating for my company keeps me up late at night, I’m restless, hence the blogging at 2 AM. This alarm is also using the people in my life to point me in the right direction and they don’t even know it. And at the same time, I know I have a choice. I could choose to answer the call and go for perhaps the best life I could ever have. Or, I could choose to ignore it and exist, knowing that a piece of me would die on the inside. I’m choosing courage not comfort. I know I will have to offer myself lots of love, compassion, and grace. There will be times I will feel alone and misunderstood, yet knowing all of that I still choose to live in my truth.
I don’t know the outcome, but I’d rather look crazy then to play it safe not living a fulfilling life. The truth is I’m more of a free-spirit who doesn’t really like to play it safe, but I have been. My happiness is tied up in answering the call too. This is my life and since it is, I’m the one that matters. I’m scared but I am going to do it anyway. It’s time to live and not just exist. I’m grateful for my life and all of the people with whom I’ve crossed paths. As the saying goes, we are all just walking each other home.
I hope that if you hear the alarm or feel a greater purpose for your life, that you are brave enough to answer it. The choice is yours. I hope you dance the rest of your life out like I plan to. Love yourself and everyone in your life well.
Stop hitting snooze. Answer. Get up. Go for it. Stop wasting time. It’s going to be okay. Live in your truth.